Feeling overwhelmed with the loss of my job.
You and I have been very distant to each other and if I don’t come and touch you physically I don’t think there would ever be any physical ties between us. It is hard to pull the energy together to keep approaching and keep approaching. Yes we are going through things yes your body has changed, yes life is always moving us about but we said to one another with family and everyone watching that we had each others back. I got your back but I have been feeling left out in the cold for a long while. I think you need to step up more and show me you are still here.
I am here as I am always going to be; just seems like I am always holding a manikins hand or giving a manikin a hug there is not ever anything there for me.
I have waited and waited and waited how much longer do I need to wait? I love you so much and want so much for us and really working hard to see everything through. Family time is great, kids events great but when its just you and I; I always feel tension. You say lets just do it but when you have no enthusiasm about us, you just roll over to your back how am I suppose to see that?
Your loving husband,